To Write or Not to Write

Some people start blogs with themes or ideas they want to share. I started this blog with no clue what I really wanted to write about. I figured the more I wrote the more my goal would reveal itself to me, or I would end up with random un-related posts that would eventually make sense.

So far no such luck. I think my issue is that I do have a lot of ideas that I want to write about but as soon as I sit down to write my mind goes blank. My first thought usually is "what?". The truth is I fear blogging. I fear that I have nothing worth saying, or that no one is listening or that I'm a complete hypocrite, but worst of all I fear having bad grammar. The most common criticism I used to receive on papers in college was that I had used my tenses wrong. I had mix up past, present and future tenses.

Some times my mind just feels so ESL (english as a second language) that it is hard to get out what I really want to say. I probably spend a quarter of my time writing, another quarter of my time thinking and the other half of the time checking my grammar and occasionally I will still end up finding a mistake in a post after it has been posted! Damn it. That one sentence snuck in there.

I often I wish I had my own little English major room-mate at my beck and call to proof read for me like I did in college. Unfortunately, an art degree does nothing for the grammar.